Authenticity?

What does authenticity mean to you?

I can’t help but think that I only present a certain side of me on this blog and my social media. My secret blog is quite different from this one.

I value authenticity. I strive to be an authentic person and I’ve been told that I am one. I haven’t been feeling like one lately.

I don’t think I’m fake, though. I just don’t show everything – There’s no good reason to, either. Isn’t everyone the same?

Thoughts?

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#Killstagram Chapter 34

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Anime Favourites A-Z Challenge

Thank you Lina for the nomination!

THE RULES

1. Pick a favorite series/movie for each letter of the alphabet. For titles starting with “a” “an” or “the” use the first letter of the next word of the title.
2. Since many titles have multiple names based on the language that you are using please pick one language for the entire list (Use all English titles or all Japanese titles) and let the readers know which language you will be using. If a title has the same name regardless of the language then it can be used in any list.
3. If you don’t have a title that fits under a particular letter, you can name another favorite from a different letter in its place, just indicate which letter spot you are using for that series. This can be done up to three times. If you can’t fill a spot then you can leave it blank. No more than 26 total series are allowed.
4. Including a picture for each series is encouraged.
5. Share who tagged you for this challenge and nominate 3 more to try it themselves and include links to their blogs.
6. Just have fun with this challenge. I wanted to get everyone to share some favorite series and to spread the word about awesome blogs!

I NOMINATE

Moyatori from The Moyatorium

Ono from Post Reflections

They’re my friends in real life too.

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I’m sorry, but I’m going to cheat and use English and Japanese titles. >< I have two reasons. 1) I use English titles for certain anime and Japanese titles for other anime. I don’t have a rule for this. For example, Zankyou no Terror has always been Zankyou no Terror for me.

2) I don’t have a lot of favourite titles. If I stick with one language, I don’t think I can still call them my favourite anime.

Anyway, this is my blog so I don’t think rules matter that much. ❤

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I will also write my 2nd and 3rd picks for some letters!

Since I will be writing my runner-ups, I don’t think I need to do Rule #3 (another rule I’m breaking, hahaha).

I can fill out all the letters (i.e. put down xxxHolic for X) but I don’t know if I can call them my favourites…

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A is for After the Rain

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You can read my review here.

B is for Babylon

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You can read my thoughts on the first three episodes here.

C is for Chuukan Kanriroku Tonegawa

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This is also known as Mr Tonegawa: Middle Management Blues. This is a spin-off of Kaiji: Ultimate Survivor. You can read my review here.

Runner-up: Carole & Tuesday

D is for Death Note

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Runner-up: Durarara!!

E is for Erased

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You can read my review here.

F is for Fune wo Amu

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This is an underrated anime. I don’t have any negative to say about it.

G is for Given

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You can read my review on episode 9 here. I cried so much when I watched this episode.

Runner-up: Grandmaster of Demonic Cultivation, also known as Mo Dao Zu Shi. This is the donghua version of the Chinese drama, The Untamed.

H is for Heaven’s Memo Pad

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This is an underrated anime. You can read my review here.

I is for Inuyashiki

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You can read my review here.

J is for Jigoku Shoujo Futakomori

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This is the second season. It’s also the best season (in my opinion). You can read my review here.

K is for Kaiji: Ultimate Survivor

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Watch Kaiji!

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M is for Made in Abyss

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This anime looks cute but it’s definitely not for children. It’s very twisted. You can read my review here.

Runner-ups: Mob Psycho 100 II; My Roommate is a Cat

N is for Net-juu no Susume

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This is also known as Recovery of an MMO Junkie.

Runner-up: Natsume’s Book of Friends

O is for One Piece

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One Piece is my favourite anime.

Runner-up: One Outs

P is for Parasyte

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Next To You is my current phone ringtone.

Q is for Quanzhi Gaoshou

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This is also known as The King’s Avatar. There’s also a Chinese drama.

R is for Rising of the Shield Hero

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This anime evoked a lot of emotions… especially anger. I wrote episodic impressions on this series. You can read part 1 here.

S is for Shingeki no Kyojin Season 3 Part 2

Season 3 Part 2 specifically. It is terrifying.

Runner-up: Saint Onii-san

T is for Tokyo Ghoul Season 1

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You can read my review on the final episode here.

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V is for Violet Evergarden

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I reviewed the Special episode that came out in October 2018. You can read it here.

W is for World’s Greatest First Love

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This is also known as Sekaiichi Hatsukoi.

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Y is for Yakusoku no Nebārando

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This is also known as The Promised Neverland. You can read my thoughts on the first episode here.

Z is for Zankyou no Terror

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Zankyou no Terror matches my taste in anime perfectly.

My Anime Preferences ≠ Wholesome?

Some people think that I like wholesome shows or shows from the shojo genre. My university’s anime club held a shojo trivia game and I wasn’t very helpful… Sure, I’ve watched shows from every genre but I didn’t know the majority of the answers.

So then… what kind of shows do I like? Well… I wouldn’t exactly classify them as ‘wholesome.’

From top to bottom: Parasyte, Death Note, Attack on Titan, Kaiji, and Zankyou no Terror. I also like Attack on Titan and Inuyashiki.

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So what does this all mean? What do my anime preferences say about me as a person?

Absolutely nothing at all, except that I like interesting anime. Hahaha.

Remembering Zankyou no Terror

I’ve blogged about experiencing “the void” after completing Zankyou no Terror. The anime left me heartbroken for a couple of weeks.

Now I’m feeling something else. I listened to one of the songs from the Zankyou no Terror soundtrack and all the feelings resurfaced. I think I’m making this sound more dramatic than it actually is, but I really miss this series. I wish I could wipe all of my memories of the show so that I could watch it again with a blank slate.

I might rewatch this series. I wonder if my thoughts of the show will change the second time around. I wonder if my heart will get ripped apart again. Again, I am making this sound more dramatic than it actually is… Zankyou no Terror fits with my tastes in shows perfectly.

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Unrelated, but I love the sky. I wish I could fly freely like a bird.

Anime Cosplays: Yuri!!! on Ice & Zankyou no Terror

Yuri Katsuki from Yuri!!! on Ice. I don’t have Viktor’s Omanjuu Niginigi ;__;

Nine from Zankyou no Terror. I love him.

More cosplays to come.

The Void

I recently finished watching the anime, Zankyou no Terror, and I felt kind of empty, like I didn’t know what to do with myself afterwards. So I went to Google and found out it’s a thing called ‘post-series depression.’ To be honest, I don’t feel completely comfortable with the word ‘depression’ in there because I feel like it kind of minimizes depression.

I think that this void I’m feeling is a common feeling and I think it will go away with time. I guess when you find an anime or any series that meshes with your tastes perfectly, you are reluctant to start another show. You need time to process the show and this feeling. Zankyou no Terror is only 11 episodes and I did binge most of it so I was only able to experience it for such a short time. Perhaps it is a deep appreciation towards a series that ended too soon.

I’m not sure often this feeling is talked about within the anime blogging community, or how often people feel this. Have you experienced this or something similar? If you feel comfortable sharing, let me know in the comments!

Beautiful Icelandic song from Zankyou no Terror.