Day 9: 15 Days of Death Note Challenge

This challenge is from Ryuugi’s Tatsuya’s Anime Corner.

Day 9: Favourite L Quote

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I am a bit late but it’s still Day 9 for me since I haven’t slept yet…

There are many types of monsters that scare me: Monsters who cause trouble without showing themselves, monsters who abduct children, monsters who devour dreams, monsters who suck blood… and then, monsters who tell nothing but lies. Lying monsters are a real nuisance: They are much more cunning than others. They pose as humans even though they have no understanding of the human heart; they eat even though they’ve never experienced hunger; they study even though they have no interest in academics; they seek friendship even though they do not know how to love. If I were to encounter such monsters, I would likely be eaten by them… because in truth, I am that monster.” – L Lawliet

I thought about this quote a lot some years ago. Which one is more terrifying – an evil person who shows their true colours or an evil person who hides behind a mask? I think it’s the latter.

What kind of “monster” devours dreams? Is it society as a whole? Could it be a close-minded parent?

RE: “they study even though they have no interest.” I think this is quite common.

There’s a lot to unpack here. But the thing that strikes me the most is the last part:

“because in truth, I am that monster.”

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Judging by this quote, I don’t think that being a monster is a bad thing. Isn’t it just being a human?

From what L is saying, I am a monster. I don’t see anything wrong with this… but maybe I am proving his point.

On Idolizing Stars

Japanese actor and singer, Yamashita Tomohisa, was seen leaving a hotel. He reportedly stayed at the hotel for eight hours with a 17-year-old minor. He is 35. That’s all the news there is about that right now.

I loved Yamapi when I was in high school. My friend even decorated frames with his photos for my 18th birthday. I haven’t followed his news in the past five years due to moving onto other interests. It was still a shock to read the news.

Animated gif about cute in 🌬 Life is Moveable by Pastel_Cathedral

It made me think, is it okay to look up to idols? To love them and support them? We don’t even know them personally. I think it’s perfectly fine to love their character from their series but what about them as an individual?

Then I thought, the same happens to people we do know. People in our day-to-day life. Some people, including the ones closest to us, can betray us and surprise us with their wickedness. Is there a difference between this and when a celebrity does it?

Perhaps we should trust and love others until they prove to us that they do not deserve it. I wonder if this is too simple. Too positive..?

“The Truth” – The Classroom of the Elite & Durarara!!

So I started watching The Classroom of the Elite and I am hooked. It’s from 2017, so I am surprised I didn’t know about the anime earlier. They present a quote at the beginning of every episode. I thought that the quote for episode 4 was very interesting.

I also have other quotes that support this thought.

Do not expect people to tell you the truth because they also lie to themselves.” – Don Miguel Ruiz, The Four Agreements

No one is truly honest…Even if we don’t lie to others, we often lie to ourselves. And the word good means different things to different people.”

Lastly, my favourite anime character, Izaya Orihara from Durarara!! talks about this in episode 2.

In regard to “Everyone’s the same” I do not believe he is referring to equality. The Classroom of the Elite talks about equality. I do not believe that humans are equal, nor do I think that humans are born equal. What I believe Izaya is talking about is specific to the context (see next screenshot).

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OK, but why am I even writing about this?? Let’s just say that I think a lot, so much that my head might explode if I don’t write things down. I’m joking, of course.

To see a show talk about the things I think about is pretty sweet, as if my thoughts are being validated.

Ikiru = To Live

In Japanese, Ikiru 生きる means “To Live.”

I was playing Danganronpa V3: Killing Harmony and the students were talking about the purpose of life. I thought that Kaito Momota’s statement, “Life’s purpose is to be lived!” was quite interesting.

What does it mean, though? The statement makes sense, but it’s also so vague. If I try to go deeper, I become stuck. Does it even have a deeper meaning?

Back in March 2018, I wrote a post about the similarities between the 1952 film, Ikiru, and the 2017 anime, Inuyashiki. I think that both series show what the purpose of life means to the protagonists. From what I gather from these two works, I think the common theme is that helping other people –> brings meaning to their lives. I don’t believe that this is the same for everyone, though. Maybe this is the answer, but I don’t think it’s that simple.

Maybe we will find out the answer on our own. I just hope that I won’t be close to retirement by then (like in Ikiru and Inuyashiki)…

If you have any thoughts about this topic, please let me know!

“Ordinary Person” [Sekai Ichi Hatsukoi]

Sekai Ichi Hatsuko Episode 8

I’m 23, just graduated from university with two degrees and feel this way for everything I do. Blogging, cosplaying, photography, drawing, school, work… I can’t even remember when I did not have such feelings of just being ordinary. Shouta Kisa from Sekai Ichi Hatsukoi is 30 and feels this way. Is it bad that I’ve felt this at a much younger age? Have I ever felt gung-ho about anything?

Truth be told, my Why Do I Blog? and Why Do I Cosplay? posts were written to help myself decide if I should continue to blog and cosplay. Like Kisa, I don’t feel depressed about this. I’m just being realistic.

RE: My What’s Your Ultimate Talent? (Danganronpa Inspired Post!) Click HERE to read it. I now have an answer to my own question I wrote at the end of that post. I used to be unsure, but now I think I would rather be the best at one talent instead being kind of good at multiple talents.

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OK, this may all sound pessimistic as heck but since I’ve wrestled with these thoughts for a long time, here’s what helped me:

I think about my favourite singers and bands. Some are very popular and famous, while others are lesser known. Don’t I like them all the same? Isn’t it just personal preference? I don’t see anyone giving up, either.

I am not the best at anything I do, and it’s not something I’m striving for, either. I just want to continue to do my hobbies because it brings me some joy. That’s all.

When we keep our expectations of this world and of ourselves low, there will be less disappointment and heartache later on.

Anime Quote: Fune wo Amu

This is a continuation of my << Tonegawa’s Speech [Kaiji] >> post. In that post, I talked about how I realized that I am living my actual, real life at this very moment, at all times. For more context, read the post…

However, when I finished writing that post, I was still confused because I didn’t have enough information. What does living a fulfilling life look like? Did Tonegawa follow what he preached?

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Then I watched Fune wo Amu. It’s a highly underrated anime and I don’t have anything negative to say about it. Go check it out.

Fune wo Amu follows the life of Mitsuya Majime. Majime dedicates his life towards creating The Great Passage, a dictionary that will always remain incomplete. Why incomplete? Because words are alive and are constantly changing, so the dictionary will need to be continuously revised and edited. It is Majime’s life’s work. The Great Passage will help people better understand one another and make society a better place.

This line is from the last episode. I feel a lot of respect towards people who have something to live for, people who dedicate their entire lives towards something they are passionate about. When people pour their hearts into a piece of work, it’s very admirable and honourable. Perhaps this is an answer to what I’ve been thinking about.

When You’re Close To Finishing A Show… But Don’t

I never had this “problem” before, until recently. I’ve finished some shows, but other shows… I am close to finishing them (just 2 or 3 episodes until completion) but I’ve stopped watching them. I like the shows, too. See below:

  • Gosick 22/24
  • 2Moons 9/12
  • Eternal Love of Dream 53/56
  • TharnType 9/12

& I’m trying to figure out the reason(s) for why I do this. Do you guys do this too? I have a few ideas:

1. You don’t want the series to end. You aren’t ready to let go of the characters and the series. If it never ends, you can avoid feeling the post-series “void.”

2. You are afraid of a bad ending, or a rushed job.

3. The show already gave you everything you wanted… whatever that was.

4. You lost interest in the show.


I’m sure there are more reasons. If you can think of more reasons, please let me know. I feel like none of these are exactly it for me.

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How I’m feeling

Tonegawa’s Speech [Kaiji]

I was mindlessly scrolling through Instagram (this is nothing new) and I came across this meme.

I immediately thought about Tonegawa from Kaiji. So I rewatched his speeches and I really like this one.

Normally, those people would never wake up from their fantasy worlds. They live meaningless lives. They waste their precious days over nothing. No matter how old they get, they’ll continue to say, “My real life hasn’t started yet. The real me is still asleep, so that’s why my life is such garbage.” They continue to tell themselves that. And they age. Then die. And on their deathbeds, they will finally realize: the life they lived was the real thing. People don’t live provisional lives, nor do they die provisional deaths. That’s a simple fact! The problem… is whether they realize that simple fact.” – Yukio Tonegawa

Frankly, I felt called out. I often tell myself that I don’t belong here and that I wish I could teleport to another world. That I feel like an alien sometimes. I frequently think, “If only I could do this… If only I had this…”

Tonegawa’s speech makes a lot of sense to me. Whatever fantasy world I’m dreaming of, I need to wake up from it. I need to recognize that I am living my real life right now. It is a simple fact…

Let’s say you recognize that you’ve been wasting your life away. Then what?? Thinking is easy, but taking action is not.

Foolish or Not? The Most Foolish Traveler in The World

There are parallels between the story told by Momiji in Fruits Basket, The Most Foolish Traveler in The World, and Oscar Wilde’s short story, The Happy Prince. 

The Most Foolish Traveler in The World: About a traveler who is tricked by a goblin and gives up his legs, his arm, more and more, and finally his eyes. The only thing left is the traveler’s head. The goblin gives the traveler a “present,” a piece of paper with the word “FOOL” on it. Because the traveler cannot see, he is so happy to receive a present for the first time. 

The Happy Prince: About a statue of the late Happy Prince who learns that there are many poor people suffering. He asks a swallow to give the townspeople the ruby from his tilt, the sapphire from his eyes, and the gold leaf from his body. The swallow, who delayed his flight in order to deliver these gems, dies from the cold weather. The townspeople then think that the statue is shabby and melt it. The swallow is dead and the Happy Prince is heartbroken, but they are taken to heaven for their good deeds in the end. 

It’s interesting how one story has the word “foolish” in the title while the other has the word “happy.” You could argue that both stories have a happy ending. The traveler is happy to receive a present for the first time, and the swallow and Happy Prince go to paradise.

So, was the traveler foolish? Was the Happy Prince foolish? Was the swallow foolish? 

My thoughts: I think that the traveler was foolish. How long will his happiness last? What will happen after the story ends? He cannot walk, cannot see, and does not have other people to help him. The goblin won’t help him, that’s for sure. It’s good to receive presents from people, but at what cost? If one action of “kindness” from the goblin costed you everything, that kindness was conditional. It’s fake. 

I think the Happy Prince statue was foolish. Even though the story has a happy ending, he begged the swallow to deliver the gems even though winter was approaching. He is responsible for the swallow’s death. The Happy Prince “died” with a broken heart. The same townspeople that he helped are the ones who melted him in the furnace. They were going to replace him with a statue of the mayor. Sure, the townspeople were unaware of the Happy Prince’s good deeds but does that really matter? If you’re only going to keep the “shabby” statue because he helped you first, I question what’s going on. 

Although… I like these stories. While I think that the traveler and the Happy Prince were foolish, they are rare to come by. I would like to meet someone like the traveler some day. 

What do you think? 

Food for thought

Nobuyuki Fukumoto, creator of Kaiji and other series, has a spin-off manga about a man who craves for Instagram likes. It’s called Legend of a Strongest Man Nakane, a spin-off of Saikyou Densetsu Kurosawa. At first, I found it hard to believe that there is a series about this topic. Instagram?? What??

Nakane’s colleague explains that he buys cakes and other cute-looking sweets just for Instagram. After the post is up, he trashes the dessert because he doesn’t like sweet foods.

This page made me think. I think this is a really good point. With so many people in the world, I understand the desire to stand out from the rest.

The counter argument. Seeking approval. Craving the spotlight. “Celebrity” wannabes. Running around like idiots. WILL YOUR WORTHLESS SELF GET SOME PEACE OF MIND?

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I don’t think that posting on Instagram is that serious. Nakane and his colleague go to great lengths for likes and there are surely many users who do the same. I would believe that most users are not like this.

I frequently post on Instagram. I don’t think my intention is to “stand out” because I don’t think this is realistic for me. Maybe this is pessimistic thinking on my part, but there are so many users.

I don’t think I am looking for approval on Instagram and I don’t think I am a celebrity wannabe. Am I running around like an idiot? Maybe to some people. Will I get some peace of mind from getting likes? I wonder…

I hate this. It’s fun to take pictures and post. It’s nice to have a backlog of the good times and shared memories. Sometimes you feel more connected to others by using Instagram. At the same time, I hate it. Society feels superficial. & you know what? I will not stop using Instagram…