Why I Like Anime So Much

I had doubts over writing this post, but all the support I received on Twitter made me complete it in the end.

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Screen shots from yesterday

In elementary school, I had zero interest in gossiping about other female classmates or gushing about boys. I hated Western pop music and reality TV shows. Most of all, I made zero effort to change myself or pretend to be like them. I do think that my indifferent facial expressions hindered me from making friends. No surprise, but I didn’t have many friends. I didn’t think I was better than other people because I didn’t like myself that much either. I felt that I didn’t belong, like an alien that belonged to another planet.

I went home after school right away by myself. During the summer breaks, I stayed at home by myself during the day because my parents were working. I watched anime all-day when I was home alone and did my homework when my parents were home. I had a lot of free time, so I achieved A’s in everything except gym. Anime was a way for me to pass the time and it distracted me so I didn’t have to think about real life. I read a lot of manga too.

I learned about the world, places, people, and relationships through anime. My life was uninteresting and uneventful so I relied on anime to be my guide. At the same time, I was able to differentiate between anime and reality. All too well. I felt indifferent towards reality. Anime worlds weren’t that great either because of all the challenges the characters had to face. Still, the impossible happened in anime. A notebook that could kill people? Anime was so interesting!

This is my favourite song, and it represents how I felt when I was younger. Strangely, the song calms me and I don’t feel sadness over loneliness anymore. I’ve learned to embrace it.

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My current life is so different from my lonely childhood. When I was young I didn’t have a blog, no outlet to express my thoughts and feelings. I just had anime. It was like a friend. I still watch anime because it passes the time. With countless titles to watch and shows coming out every season, it’s endless fun. It’s still interesting.

Now that I am more involved with activities in my life, I can spend my time blogging about anime, cosplaying as anime characters, drawing anime fan art, attending conventions and more. Being active with anime has made me part of this online community of anime bloggers. You are all so nice to me. Thank you for that. When I was young, anime was the friend that killed boredom. Now, anime has provided me with fun activities and many friendships. 

As a kid, real life didn’t make me feel a lot of emotions. I was neutral most of the time. Anime made me cry countless times, and One Piece was able to make me laugh many times. Watching anime made me feel human. 

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I talk a lot in this post!

Here’s something you may not know about me: I can fall asleep in one minute. It’s true. When I have to study I like to take 15-minute naps because when my phone alarm wakes me up, 1) the alarm surprises the heck out of me and 2) it feels as if I slept for two hours. Hahaha.

Well, I don’t overthink so maybe that’s why I’m able to do this. I can fall asleep to music I like too, but not if there are loud sounds outside.

The phrases that annoy me are, “How old are you? You’re still watching cartoons?” or “How old are you? You still have plushies?” & yes – people have said these to me before.

I AM 21 AND YES, I’M STILL WATCHING ANIME AND YES, I STILL HAVE PLUSHIES. Do you understand now or do you still need help? ROFL. I am who I am. I like who I am.

Here’s another one I hear: “You take so many selfies.” Some of my followers ask for more selfies, lol.

It’s super annoying when people try to lecture you on how to live your life when they are not in the position to do so. I’m not talking about employers, professors, managers or supervisors, authorities of law, or people who hold some sort of power. I’m talking about strangers or peers who think they know you better than you know yourself. Of course it depends on the context but if it’s something ridiculous like my selfie taking or my anime watching habits, blab all you want but I am not going to listen to you!

Bottom line: If my MOM does not have any problems with my hobbies and interests, neither should you.

I have to clarify though, the VAST MAJORITY of all the people I’ve met have been incredibly supportive of me and everything I do. I am continuously amazed at peoples’ acceptance, kindness and support. Thank you for that. ❤

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Dragon fruit

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By the way, I really like the story of The Happy Prince by Oscar Wilde. I think it’s thought-provoking and very interesting. You should check it out!

Evolve

I moved during the summer of last year so I did a workspace comparison. The left was my workspace in my old place in June 2017. The right is my current workspace. I’m using a different table and my current table curves to the side. The other half of the table is filled with papers right now because I’m studying for finals. That’s why I’m not showing it hahaha!

After looking at the photos, I realized something. My favourite colour is not pink anymore. One thing about me is that I really like to drink from straws. It’s actually not good because straws are made of plastic (bad for the environment) but maybe one day I will invest in reusable straws.

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I was thinking about something earlier. I am turning 22 this year but I do look younger than my age. I sometimes act like a little kid too. This doesn’t mean I’m immature. It’s just my personality! I don’t see anything wrong with this so I don’t feel the need to not be myself. When I’m 28, I’m still going to be myself!

This isn’t to be confused with being the same person forever. I don’t agree with that because we are constantly evolving.

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Listening to: 卷珠簾 – 霍尊


I am quite confident.

I will be the judge of my content quality.

If you don’t like my blog or me, why are you still reading?

Get out.

Future Plans

You may have noticed that I’ve been posting photos of myself in my day-to-day outfits and real hair. I do have everything for a couple of cosplays but haven’t gotten around to taking photos. I’m also waiting for a few things but I should have everything soon. Expect more cosplay posts in the future.

I am not too busy but I just want to watch anime all day. I want to watch anime more than I want to look like I’m in an anime. (* ̄m ̄)

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What I wanted before:

  • Red scarf (for Misaka Ackerman) ✔
  • Black short wig (for Monkey D. Luffy & L Lawliet) ✔
  • Mask (for Kaneki Ken from Tokyo Ghoul) ✔ – waiting
  • Red skirt (for Tenma Tsukamoto) ✔

What I want now:

  • Hoodie (for Karamatsu)  ✔ – waiting
  • Sunglasses (for Karamatsu)  ✔ – waiting
  • Blonde wig (for Misa Amane)  ✔ – waiting

Cosplay plans:

  • Misaka Ackerman
  • Misa Amane (with wig)
  • Umaru
  • Karamatsu
  • Kaneki Ken – closet cosplay
  • Sakura Kinomoto (got shoes)

Yo Yo Yo

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I think it’s so funny when I see people I know randomly. They always think I’m dressed up for something but I’m really just getting food. Then when they ask who I’m meeting… it becomes a little awkward? It’s me, myself and I.

I admit that I do dress up a little by wearing baggy clothes and a cap or something. I do that to disguise myself so I can AVOID people. It’s not working.

It’s especially awks when people from my high school are the cashiers. I just act like I don’t know them LOL. It makes me feel a little intimated by the fact that they know what I’m buying. It’s a little intimate and that’s too close for me. Anyone else feel this way, or am I just weird?

I’ve been told that I’m a little hard to meet up with. That’s because I literally love staying at home. I don’t really want people coming over either lol. Idk, a lot of people say that I’m popular (I’M NOT MAKING THIS UP) but I like being at home.

I’m wearing three necklaces right now and no one is going to see. I don’t need anyone to see because I don’t dress the way that I do for other people. I have over 10 anime posters but they’re all for me only. I have no idea where I’m going with this but maybe you guys can get to know me better this way. ;_;

Blah blah blah… congrats on reading to the end!

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Thinking

I don’t just want to show the “good” parts of my life, but also the flaws I have.

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  • comes up with some elaborate story in my head on how xx is going to prefer spending time with yy and forget about me (This is a habit now, after happening to me a few times, haha.) Then I kind of disappear because I don’t want to get in the way. Then it comes true.
  • Internet addiction
  • disappearing…

There are many types of monsters that scare me: Monsters who cause trouble without showing themselves, monsters who abduct children, monsters who devour dreams, monsters who suck blood… and then, monsters who tell nothing but lies. Lying monsters are a real nuisance: They are much more cunning than others. They pose as humans even though they have no understanding of the human heart; they eat even though they’ve never experienced hunger; they study even though they have no interest in academics; they seek friendship even though they do not know how to love. If I were to encounter such monsters, I would likely be eaten by them… because in truth, I am that monster.”
― L Lawliet