My blog is over 8 years old. I want to post more frequently, but I’ve seem to lost whatever spark or inspiration I had some time ago.
I envy new bloggers because they seem to be a lot more motivated and excited than I am. They have fresh ideas. I feel the same toward old bloggers that are still at it.
I am not quitting. Don’t get me wrong — this is not a farewell announcement. But it is harder to blog now. No motivation, no original ideas, the list goes on. It would be lying if I said I don’t feel this way with my other hobby, cosplaying.
Is it the passage of time? Laziness? Tiredness? I don’t know.
Not enough engagement, perhaps? I don’t think so. I don’t think I’m fixated on numbers.
Whatever the reason, I don’t know what to do. Blogging is supposed to be a hobby, isn’t it? So why would I push myself to blog if it feels like a chore. Though it does feel sad to leave it alone.
From my personal experience, it is hard to be creative if you don’t have much energy. If you’re tired all the time, you’re not going to be thinking about creative ideas. So, I think that having energy is #1, almost like a requirement to being creative. When I have a lot of energy, I will cosplay, blog, draw, and do a bunch of random crafts.
I mostly get inspiration after having fun with my friends. I think this ties in with what I wrote above about having energy. It naturally comes to you when you feel happy and motivated.
I agree that other bloggers and creators are sources of inspiration. If it wasn’t for Annie’s post, this post wouldn’t even exist.
Thinking about my posts, I got a lot of inspiration from anime, songs, and a lot of other things. I’m driven by my passion and love for my interests and hobbies. One of my main reasons for blogging is to have a space to talk about my interests, often because I don’t have anywhere else to dump my thoughts.
Hmm, I don’t think that you can force out creativity. I don’t think it would feel very authentic. Breaks are fine, and sometimes we need them. That way, we can blog with a fresh mind and new ideas. I feel that prolonged breaks are scary, though. What if you become too comfortable and never return to blogging? Or, what if you lose your enthusiasm towards blogging? This is similar to what Annie voiced re: those who never come back. Here’s what I think: Your health comes before blogging.
I went to Bowen Island with my friends for healing because I was super stressed at the time. I don’t think any of us really expected a pandemic to happen back then, so I feel lucky that I was able to spend quality time with my friends.
2020 has been an unexpected, life-changing year for most of us, if not all of us.
1. Time seems to have slowed down for me. Pre-Covid, I was busy. I had school, practicum, three part-time jobs, and was an exec for my university’s anime club. On top of that, I watched anime, updated my blog, and cosplayed.
I recently wrote about my day-to-day life (Click here for the post). I am now at home all the time and my work is flexible. I have completed practicum, graduated, and am no longer an exec for anime club. I feel like I’m on an island, removed from the busy city.
2. I am enjoying the little things in life. Pre-Covid, I always felt like I didn’t have enough gratitude. I didn’t know how to change. Looking back, I was so busy that I didn’t have the time to process things in the moment.
Now, I’m always finding small things to appreciate. Trying out a new recipe, for example, or receiving a package. Pre-Covid, I bought things I liked and tossed them aside.
3. My social media habits have changed. Pre-Covid and several months during Covid, I posted on social media for other people to see. I don’t think that’s necessarily a bad thing because I still had fun.
I’ve changed, I think. I still think that posting on social media is fun, but my intentions are different. Lately, I’ve been looking at my old photos with friends. Photos of daily life serve as reminders of what happiness means to me. To me, photos are precious.
There’s still a lot that I can improve on, but that’s life. I’ve felt all sorts of emotions this year but I think I’ve been holding up well given the circumstances. I think that out of everything, my attitude and mindset have changed the most.
To my blogger friends and readers, I encourage all of you to reflect on what this year means for you. If you write a year-end review post, please let me know. I would love to read it. 🙂
Not going to lie, I’ve wondered why I blog and do my other hobbies. I could just enjoy content without creating my own.
What value do I add to this world? I’m contributing to something, right..?
Do people like me? My content?
Does my content suck? LOL
These are the thoughts I’ve had. I can’t help it; I’ve been negative my entire life.
I got a letter from my penpal and a portion of the letter stuck out to me. The gist of it was: pushing people towards things they would have otherwise overlooked, and that people have watched shows because of me. This is true. I’ve had many people tell me that they’ve watched shows because of my reviews. Examples: Bii Your Light + Appreciation Shout-Outs & Yesterday wo Utatte Episode 1 Impressions. There are many more instances…
Isn’t this a huge reason why I blog in the first place? To share the things I love so that more people can learn about them. In my Why I Like Anime So Much post, I shared that growing up, my classmates and I enjoyed different shows. I was alone in the sense that nobody knew what I was talking about.
Things are different now. Possibly the biggest reason why I blog is because of the blogging community and my blogger friends. Friends that, may not necessarily watch the stuff I like but are willing to read about my interests and be nonjudgmental.
Re-examining my motivations for blogging and other interests made me realize that blogging is a meaningful hobby for me. 🙂
A question for bloggers: Do you ever feel like some of your posts fade into irrelevancy as you keep putting out new posts? That they get buried deep in the archives? I guess this question applies for bloggers that frequently post.
I have over 550 posts. Maybe you can think of a few of my posts on the top of your head, but I’m guessing they’re the more recent ones. I won’t blog any less because of this, though.
I wrote this post in March 2019 but never published it because I thought it was too corny.
I would like to take a moment to express my appreciation and gratitude. I’ve had readers tell me they’ve watched the Asian dramas I’ve recommended, watched the anime I’ve recommended, enjoyed the songs I’ve recommended, and more. It’s a wonderful feeling when someone tells you that they enjoyed your recommendation. It really brings meaning to the work I do. Blogging is not a paid job, and this blog comes from a place of love. I do put my heart into my reviews and what I write.
If you’ve read my extremely personal post, Why I Like Anime So Much, you might remember that I’ve had a lonely childhood. The thought that there are people out there that are interested in what I am watching and reading was unimaginable. All your comments, messages and emails have showed me that things do get better.❤
The actual collab post is on The Pantless Anime Blogger’s blog. This was my first collab (I’ve only done two). We talked about One Piece! I’m super impressed that TPAB watched an entire arc for this collab.
I think I’m FINALLY getting used to being at home all day, every day. My kalimba arrived and it’s really nice.
I don’t feel that lonely. I play games with my BFF almost every night and we also exercise and draw together. She recently got a drawing tablet. I wouldn’t be doing these three things as much if it weren’t for her, to be honest. (Everything is done virtually.)
I watch shows with my other friends. We’re also practicing the kalimba together since we ordered together. & of course, I have my family, online friends, and a few other close friends.