The Void

I recently finished watching the anime, Zankyou no Terror, and I felt kind of empty, like I didn’t know what to do with myself afterwards. So I went to Google and found out it’s a thing called ‘post-series depression.’ To be honest, I don’t feel completely comfortable with the word ‘depression’ in there because I feel like it kind of minimizes depression.

I think that this void I’m feeling is a common feeling and I think it will go away with time. I guess when you find an anime or any series that meshes with your tastes perfectly, you are reluctant to start another show. You need time to process the show and this feeling. Zankyou no Terror is only 11 episodes and I did binge most of it so I was only able to experience it for such a short time. Perhaps it is a deep appreciation towards a series that ended too soon.

I’m not sure often this feeling is talked about within the anime blogging community, or how often people feel this. Have you experienced this or something similar? If you feel comfortable sharing, let me know in the comments!

Beautiful Icelandic song from Zankyou no Terror.

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I recently came across a poem called ‘Alone’ by Edgar Allan Poe. My favourite part is the beginning:

From childhood’s hour I have not been
As others were—I have not seen
As others saw—I could not bring
My passions from a common spring—
From the same source I have not taken
My sorrow—I could not awaken
My heart to joy at the same tone—
And all I lov’d—I lov’d alone—

I think it’s beautiful. There is some comfort in knowing that this is not a new feeling, since this poem is from the 1800s, lol. If you feel this way and other people feel this way, then are you still alone?

Anyways, has anyone tried green tea Coke? It’s a drink in Japan and I won’t be able to buy that here in Canada. I might try to make it myself by mixing green tea with Cola, but I don’t think I’ll be able to produce the same result, hahaha. I recently completed Zankyou no Terror (it’s now one of my favourite anime) and green tea was mixed with Cola.

🌸work-life balance🌸 ??

Selfie from a couple of weeks ago.

I got a third lobe piercing.

I enjoy reviewing anime and realize that I haven’t been doing enough of it. One of my goals is to write more reviews.

Another goal is getting back to reading books that aren’t manga or webtoons. Don’t get me wrong – I adore comics with all my heart but there’s something lovely about literature too! I may potentially write more book reviews too.

I wonder why I dedicate so much time and energy into my hobbies (watching anime, cosplaying, blogging, drawing, taking photos with my camera, and more). I certainly don’t have to do any of these things. Then again, I wouldn’t like things to be any other way.

Obligatory birthday post

So my 23rd birthday just passed and now I’m writing this at 1 AM. It was a good birthday.

I think I’ve grown a lot in these past few years. I’m pretty chill now… A lot of things don’t bother me anymore. Or maybe I’ve just become desensitized to everything. Hahaha.

Seriously though, I can’t remember the last time I felt petty in a while. If I have a problem with someone, I feel comfortable confronting them about the issue now, while keeping the conversation respectful.

I’ve started doing things less for other peoples’ approval. I would say that I’ve become a more authentic person. Authenticity is one of my values and those who respect me and like me for who I am are people I cherish.

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Let’s be real here – there are a lot more interactions on Instagram. Instagram is more convenient to use and more people go on it. Research shows that people generally have shorter attention spans now.

I still see the value of blogs but newer platforms do have their pros as well. I don’t necessarily like that, but I’ll continue to use both Instagram and WordPress. As times change, we also need to adapt.

For those who genuinely enjoy visiting my blog, don’t worry. I’ve done this since I was 16 and I will continue to blog until I can no longer type. In my experience with WordPress, it used to be such a lively place. Y’all are all such lovely folks and I enjoy talking to you guys so much. It is a little sad to see that it is not the same as it once was (for reference, 60 people liking my posts and 30 comments on more ‘successful’ posts). Ultimately, I blog for myself. My blog is a space where I can express my thoughts, feelings, love of anime and cosplay. It is my diary and safe space.

How Spending Less Time on Social Media Has Benefitted Me

I’ve deactivated my Twitter account and go on certain social media platforms significantly less now. I have set a time limit on other platforms, such as Instagram. Why?

Firstly, it’s not realistic for me to chat with people online 24-7 every single day. I have sh!t to do! I am busy. Secondly, it does not fit my personality as I am someone who feels energized when I do my hobbies. Talking to people for prolonged periods of time and going outside very frequently feels draining. It’s extremely important to me that I do not lose sight of myself and that I remain true to myself.

Some social media platforms are pretty toxic. I don’t want to be like No Face from Spirited Away and be influenced/changed by the toxic space. I’ve blogged about the topic of toxicity in environment in this post.

Now that I’ve been using social media less, I can put out more blog posts! I can stay on top of my work tasks and do other things like house work LOL. I can spend more time with family and be more present in the moment.