My Heart is Full

I celebrated my birthday four times this year with different people.

1st time

• Taiwanese restaurant
• My Hero Academia movie in theatres
• bubble tea
• my friend paid for everything – thank you
• got Detective Conan cosplay, wig, wig cap, Oscar Wilde’s Happy Prince book, metal straws (including bubble tea straw), metal straw cleaner, card – in Kaneki bag

2nd time

• Japanese restaurant
• got Kumamon plush, hand cream that smells really good, postcard
• getting Osamu Dazai’s No Longer Human book

3rd time

• hot pot
• got mustard cardigan, super soft hoodie, concealer, letter

birthday

• first class was cancelled – I slept in and watched anime in bed
• birthday wishes on social media, in person
• free matcha lemonade drink from Blenz
• gifts from parents and brother
• getting free bubble tea from Pearl Fever
• I ordered gifts for myself – cosplay stuff

4th time

• Korean bbq buffet – thank you friends for treating me
• friend picked me up and dropped me home
• got Charmed Aroma candle with ring inside, homemade cupcakes, hand cream that smells really good, false lashes, lip balm, card
• got necklace, strawberry matcha tea, glasses for cosplay, face masks, nose mask, lip mask, card

I also found out this morning that I won BiblioNyan’s giveaway!

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I’m writing this post for myself, for my future sad days. When I feel sad, I can read this post and remind myself that I am lucky to have good people in my life. I tend to forget a lot of the things that people do for me.

I wonder if I deserve all of this. I’m struggling with this because I am no one special. I’m not used to this much kindness in my life. I’ve written before that I had a lonely childhood.

Thank you everyone. I hope that I am treating you with as much kindness. I don’t think I am, but I’ll improve on that. Maybe I am too harsh on myself, but these are my true feelings.