Going Back to My Roots

Not going to lie, I’ve wondered why I blog and do my other hobbies. I could just enjoy content without creating my own.

What value do I add to this world? I’m contributing to something, right..?

Do people like me? My content?

Does my content suck? LOL

These are the thoughts I’ve had. I can’t help it; I’ve been negative my entire life.

I got a letter from my penpal and a portion of the letter stuck out to me. The gist of it was: pushing people towards things they would have otherwise overlooked, and that people have watched shows because of me. This is true. I’ve had many people tell me that they’ve watched shows because of my reviews. Examples: Bii Your Light + Appreciation Shout-Outs & Yesterday wo Utatte Episode 1 Impressions. There are many more instances…

Isn’t this a huge reason why I blog in the first place? To share the things I love so that more people can learn about them. In my Why I Like Anime So Much post, I shared that growing up, my classmates and I enjoyed different shows. I was alone in the sense that nobody knew what I was talking about.

Things are different now. Possibly the biggest reason why I blog is because of the blogging community and my blogger friends. Friends that, may not necessarily watch the stuff I like but are willing to read about my interests and be nonjudgmental.

Re-examining my motivations for blogging and other interests made me realize that blogging is a meaningful hobby for me. 🙂

The Joys of Writing Reviews

I wrote this post in March 2019 but never published it because I thought it was too corny. 

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I would like to take a moment to express my appreciation and gratitude. I’ve had readers tell me they’ve watched the Asian dramas I’ve recommended, watched the anime I’ve recommended, enjoyed the songs I’ve recommended, and more. It’s a wonderful feeling when someone tells you that they enjoyed your recommendation. It really brings meaning to the work I do. Blogging is not a paid job, and this blog comes from a place of love. I do put my heart into my reviews and what I write.

If you’ve read my extremely personal post, Why I Like Anime So Much, you might remember that I’ve had a lonely childhood. The thought that there are people out there that are interested in what I am watching and reading was unimaginable. All your comments, messages and emails have showed me that things do get better.❤

Expect more diary posts

I think I’m FINALLY getting used to being at home all day, every day. My kalimba arrived and it’s really nice.

I don’t feel that lonely. I play games with my BFF almost every night and we also exercise and draw together. She recently got a drawing tablet. I wouldn’t be doing these three things as much if it weren’t for her, to be honest. (Everything is done virtually.)

I watch shows with my other friends. We’re also practicing the kalimba together since we ordered together. & of course, I have my family, online friends, and a few other close friends.

p.s. I have a penpal. In December 2019, I wrote a post called The Significance of the Letter. Did you know that I’ve published over 550 posts?

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Iced coffee

The Significance of the Letter

Violet Evergarden does an amazing job of portraying the significance of writing letters and receiving them. I thought the beginning of the anime was slow, but I’m very glad I completed it. Violet Evergarden does a great job at pulling at your heartstrings. Definitely give it a watch!

I was thinking about Violet Evergarden and letters in general, then thought about the letters and cards I’ve received over the years. I actually keep the majority of them, any card or letter that contains a personal message. Some, I keep in a box in my room. The rest, I keep downstairs.

Some letters and cards are from people I am no longer in touch with. I think it’s natural to drift away from people. Then we meet new people. There is nothing strange about that. The people that were once a part of my life were there for me during my highs and lows. Their letters and cards serve as a way for me to remember them, and evidence of the good moments we shared.

I write letters. In fact, I rarely give people cards. Some people tell me that they love that I write letters. I think that it is sometimes easier to convey feelings through words. I spend a long time on my letters. I write with different coloured pens sometimes. I also decorate them with stickers and stamps. I hope that people enjoy reading my letters. ^^

My Heart is Full

I celebrated my birthday four times this year with different people.

1st time

• Taiwanese restaurant
• My Hero Academia movie in theatres
• bubble tea
• my friend paid for everything – thank you
• got Detective Conan cosplay, wig, wig cap, Oscar Wilde’s Happy Prince book, metal straws (including bubble tea straw), metal straw cleaner, card – in Kaneki bag

2nd time

• Japanese restaurant
• got Kumamon plush, hand cream that smells really good, postcard
• getting Osamu Dazai’s No Longer Human book

3rd time

• hot pot
• got mustard cardigan, super soft hoodie, concealer, letter

birthday

• first class was cancelled – I slept in and watched anime in bed
• birthday wishes on social media, in person
• free matcha lemonade drink from Blenz
• gifts from parents and brother
• getting free bubble tea from Pearl Fever
• I ordered gifts for myself – cosplay stuff

4th time

• Korean bbq buffet – thank you friends for treating me
• friend picked me up and dropped me home
• got Charmed Aroma candle with ring inside, homemade cupcakes, hand cream that smells really good, false lashes, lip balm, card
• got necklace, strawberry matcha tea, glasses for cosplay, face masks, nose mask, lip mask, card

I also found out this morning that I won BiblioNyan’s giveaway!

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I’m writing this post for myself, for my future sad days. When I feel sad, I can read this post and remind myself that I am lucky to have good people in my life. I tend to forget a lot of the things that people do for me.

I wonder if I deserve all of this. I’m struggling with this because I am no one special. I’m not used to this much kindness in my life. I’ve written before that I had a lonely childhood.

Thank you everyone. I hope that I am treating you with as much kindness. I don’t think I am, but I’ll improve on that. Maybe I am too harsh on myself, but these are my true feelings.

Study Date with Moya

Moya (Moyatori) from The Moyatorium goes to the same university as me. Today, we met for the first time at a café!

Moya was trying to figure out my real name so that’s why we are holding Death Note volumes. I am L and Moya is Light.

This is my first time meeting another blogger in real life. It’s fun!

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I guess I don’t have much to say in this post, except for the words… thank you. Some of you guys have stuck with me through thick and thin and it means a lot to me. I love you~

I feel quite content right now. I’m happy. ^^

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Also, message me on Twitter if you haven’t already~

21

I turned 21 years old on October 1! On the day before my birthday, I got my ears pierced with a friend. I got upper lobe done and it was painless. We visited a Chinese garden then went to my place for a sleepover.

All of my close friends attended my birthday dinner. We went to a Japanese restaurant.

Two friends surprised me with a cake. The staff sang ‘Happy Birthday’ really loud and I was shocked! I thought it was for a different table.

You can see my balloon and a scarf my friends gave me. I got a lot of cool gifts! I honestly think that I have the best friends in the whole world because they accept me for who I am. I am a little different with the whole anime hobby thing. I act like a kid, and I ask a lot of dumb questions. They still love me for being me.

Hair Cut+ My Instrumental Playlist

I did not expect my last post to be so popular, so I decided to blog again in the same style.

My friend and I went to a Korean salon after class and got hair cuts together. The hairdressers were young and pretty.

We ate kim bap for lunch and then got bubble tea at a nearby bubble tea shop. The app is called SNOW in case you were curious.

sweater – H&M (gift)

dress (gift)

cardigan (gift)

necklace (gift)

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Here’s a playlist of instrumental songs I like. It’s not all of them because so many songs are not on SoundCloud. It’s a mix of sad/battle music/music box/violin/piano/everything. I find that instrumental songs are good for doing homework.

Week Recap

Sindy at Infiinty inspired me to do this post (with gifs) after I read her’s. Coincidentally, I’m drinking red tea as I type this blog post. This was not intentional.

I sneeze so much now and I frequently have a runny nose. I am not sick. Something triggers it, like dust in an old shop or a woman’s strong perfume. After the triggering event, I don’t stop sneezing for weeks. I should probably see a doctor.

Well, I’ve reached 900 followers so thank you for all the love, kindness and support. It’s a rewarding experience when younger girls open up to me about their experiences with cyber bullying, post-secondary goals, and one girl even sent me her graduation photo! I felt so touched…

I’ve developed many meaningful friendships thanks to this blog. I talk to some friends almost every day on my social media. The AniTwitter/AniBlogging community makes life so fun. The power of the Internet is amazing because it brings people together.