“Ordinary Person” [Sekai Ichi Hatsukoi]

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I’m 23, just graduated from university with two degrees and feel this way for everything I do. Blogging, cosplaying, photography, drawing, school, work… I can’t even remember when I did not have such feelings of just being ordinary. Shouta Kisa from Sekai Ichi Hatsukoi is 30 and feels this way. Is it bad that I’ve felt this at a much younger age? Have I ever felt gung-ho about anything?

Truth be told, my Why Do I Blog? and Why Do I Cosplay? posts were written to help myself decide if I should continue to blog and cosplay. Like Kisa, I don’t feel depressed about this. I’m just being realistic.

RE: My What’s Your Ultimate Talent? (Danganronpa Inspired Post!) Click HERE to read it. I now have an answer to my own question I wrote at the end of that post. I used to be unsure, but now I think I would rather be the best at one talent instead being kind of good at multiple talents.

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OK, this may all sound pessimistic as heck but since I’ve wrestled with these thoughts for a long time, here’s what helped me:

I think about my favourite singers and bands. Some are very popular and famous, while others are lesser known. Don’t I like them all the same? Isn’t it just personal preference? I don’t see anyone giving up, either.

I am not the best at anything I do, and it’s not something I’m striving for, either. I just want to continue to do my hobbies because it brings me some joy. That’s all.

When we keep our expectations of this world and of ourselves low, there will be less disappointment and heartache later on.

When You’re Close To Finishing A Show… But Don’t

I never had this “problem” before, until recently. I’ve finished some shows, but other shows… I am close to finishing them (just 2 or 3 episodes until completion) but I’ve stopped watching them. I like the shows, too. See below:

  • Gosick 22/24
  • 2Moons 9/12
  • Eternal Love of Dream 53/56
  • TharnType 9/12

& I’m trying to figure out the reason(s) for why I do this. Do you guys do this too? I have a few ideas:

1. You don’t want the series to end. You aren’t ready to let go of the characters and the series. If it never ends, you can avoid feeling the post-series “void.”

2. You are afraid of a bad ending, or a rushed job.

3. The show already gave you everything you wanted… whatever that was.

4. You lost interest in the show.


I’m sure there are more reasons. If you can think of more reasons, please let me know. I feel like none of these are exactly it for me.

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How I’m feeling

Why Do I Cosplay?

I’ve written about why I blog, so this time I’ll write about why I cosplay.

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  1. It’s fun. I like fashion and clothes.
  2. It’s a way to show my love of anime.
  3. It’s cool to own things from anime. For example, I have Luffy’s straw hat from One Piece, Kaneki’s mask from Tokyo Ghoul, a No Face mask from Spirited Away, Mitsuha’s hair tie/bracelet from Your Name, and a lot more stuff. I don’t care much about expensive, brand name things but I like to own things from anime because I think it’s cool.
  4. Cosplay is a creative outlet.
  5. I get to look different anytime I want. For example, I’ve cosplayed as Nana Osaki from Nana (punk look) and I’ve cosplayed as several boy characters. I’ve cosplayed as child characters and as mother characters too. Even my day-to-day style changes all the time. I don’t like to be restricted to one style because I like to feel free and fluid.
  6. Cosplay has helped improve my self-confidence. I cosplay for myself. I am happy when people tell me that they like my cosplays, but my own self-perception is really important. When you see photos that you feel proud about, there is a feeling of self-satisfaction which ultimately boosts your self-esteem.
  7. I’ve met cool people through cosplay and it has also reaffirmed my friendships because it feels so good when you are supported by friends.
  8. It’s a way to spend time. I spend most of my free watching shows but cosplay is a break from watching something.
  9. It’s fun to cosplay at conventions.

Why Do I Blog?

Blogging is my hobby so I would say that I blog for myself. Sometimes I ask myself why I blog, or why I cosplay or draw. Sometimes I have thoughts like, “There will always be people who do it better than you. What impact do you make?” but I don’t think that this is a correct way of thinking. Undoubtedly, there are people who are better but there is only one of you- and no one can be better at being you. 

1. I blog because I hate boredom. I become bored very easily, did you know? 

2. Even though I say that I blog for myself, I still want my writing to impact at least one person. One person, that’s all I wish for. I believe that I have accomplished this. Should there ever be a time where absolutely no one reads my blog, I am unsure if I would keep writing. 

You could argue that the satisfaction I gain from impacting another person is still blogging for myself. 

3. I need an outlet. I spend so much time watching shows. How could I not write down my thoughts about an episode or show that left a big impression on me? 

4. My hope is that people will become interested in the things I like after reading my posts. ^^

5. Online friends and the AniBlogger community. This should be placed higher but I’m listing these in random order. I’ve been lucky enough to have met a couple of blogger friends in real life. ^^

6. I can convey how I feel through writing. When I write a blog post, I feel like I am writing a letter. 

7. It is a record. This is probably one of the most important reasons to me. 

8. “Hey! I exist!” This is also a feeling I want to convey when I update my blog. I really value all the comments, emails, and messages I receive from readers and blogger friends. 

9. I don’t want to stop writing. Sure, I write messages through social media every day. I argue that writing on the blog is different and I don’t want to lose the routines of reading or writing.  

10. I genuinely enjoy blogging.

11. Self-care.


I don’t have desires to monetize my blog or make money off of my blog. I don’t want to make a career out of this. As Lumi said before, my blog is my corner of the internet. 

The Eternal Love (2017) – Episodes 1-3 Impressions

Title: The Eternal Love/双世宠妃

Release year: 2017

Episode count: 24

I started a Chinese drama called The Eternal Love. It’s not to be confused with Eternal Love or Three Lives, Three Worlds, Ten Miles of Peach Blossoms, which is an entirely different Chinese drama (the latter is one of my favourite dramas, by the way – go check it out).

In The Eternal Love, Qu Xiaotan from the modern world is isekai’d into historical China. In other words, she time travels and occupies the body of Qu Tan’er, the second daughter of the Qu family. The catch is that whenever she tells a lie, the real Tan’er wakes up from the body. Xiaotan and Tan’er basically switch back and forth and do not retain memories of each other.

Now for the plot. Xiaotan/Tan’er is forced to marry Mo Liancheng, the eighth prince. Xiaotan does not like the idea of marrying a stranger, while Tan’er is in love with Liancheng’s brother, Mo Yihuai. However, she marries him with the intention of spying on Liancheng. Xiaotan is left in the dark about these schemes which is really confusing for Liancheng.

Tan’er is proper and follows the traditional norms of the time period. Xiaotan, on the other hand, is rebellious and unapologetic. She is infuriated that she experiences mistreatment from her father’s consort and that she was forced to marry a stranger. She makes several attempts to return to the modern world.

This drama is hilarious! Xiaotan cracks me up. Since she is a character from the modern world, only we can understand her references to certain things (i.e. the toothbrush, modern slang). Her and Liancheng have great chemistry. He always has her back, cares deeply for her, is good-looking…

I’m definitely going to keep watching because this drama is so funny and because I love both the main leads. A lot of historical dramas have a serious tone to them and they are quite long… Time passes so quickly when I’m watching this drama. For a romantic comedy historical drama, this one is done really well.

A Love Letter to One Piece

Dear One Piece,

I admit that I did not like you when I was in elementary school. I was turned away by the art style but in my second year of university, I gave you another chance. It was completely a spontaneous decision, but it’s one of the best spontaneous decisions I’ve made.

I also believe that I did not have the maturity to understand some of the themes at a younger age. I would not have appreciated the series to the fullest extent. Some people think that anime is only for children. That is an unfortunate misconception.

While the 900+ episode count may be intimidating, I do not have to worry about “missing” the series. One Piece is always there for you when you are feeling down or bored. I’ve spent many hours watching One Piece. I had a lot of free time. Not so much now because I’m always working, but all those hours watching One Piece were well spent. I wouldn’t have it any other way. I’ve learned so much from watching One Piece. I would love to travel, like the pirates in One Piece. I’ll work hard so that I will be able to do that. ^^

I dislike rewatching things. One Piece, however, is an exception due to how long it is. Eiichiro Oda is phenomenal at telling stories. It taught me what friendships can look like. I’ve cried numerous times and laughed so hard that my stomach hurt. Some days I feel nothing. I’ve felt everything at once when I watched One Piece.

From the bottom of my heart, thank you One Piece. Thank you Eiirchiro Oda and staff for creating such an exceptional series.

Sincerely,

Rose

Related post:

My Love for One Piece

Obligatory birthday post

So my 23rd birthday just passed and now I’m writing this at 1 AM. It was a good birthday.

I think I’ve grown a lot in these past few years. I’m pretty chill now… A lot of things don’t bother me anymore. Or maybe I’ve just become desensitized to everything. Hahaha.

Seriously though, I can’t remember the last time I felt petty in a while. If I have a problem with someone, I feel comfortable confronting them about the issue now, while keeping the conversation respectful.

I’ve started doing things less for other peoples’ approval. I would say that I’ve become a more authentic person. Authenticity is one of my values and those who respect me and like me for who I am are people I cherish.

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Let’s be real here – there are a lot more interactions on Instagram. Instagram is more convenient to use and more people go on it. Research shows that people generally have shorter attention spans now.

I still see the value of blogs but newer platforms do have their pros as well. I don’t necessarily like that, but I’ll continue to use both Instagram and WordPress. As times change, we also need to adapt.

For those who genuinely enjoy visiting my blog, don’t worry. I’ve done this since I was 16 and I will continue to blog until I can no longer type. In my experience with WordPress, it used to be such a lively place. Y’all are all such lovely folks and I enjoy talking to you guys so much. It is a little sad to see that it is not the same as it once was (for reference, 60 people liking my posts and 30 comments on more ‘successful’ posts). Ultimately, I blog for myself. My blog is a space where I can express my thoughts, feelings, love of anime and cosplay. It is my diary and safe space.

How Spending Less Time on Social Media Has Benefitted Me

I’ve deactivated my Twitter account and go on certain social media platforms significantly less now. I have set a time limit on other platforms, such as Instagram. Why?

Firstly, it’s not realistic for me to chat with people online 24-7 every single day. I have sh!t to do! I am busy. Secondly, it does not fit my personality as I am someone who feels energized when I do my hobbies. Talking to people for prolonged periods of time and going outside very frequently feels draining. It’s extremely important to me that I do not lose sight of myself and that I remain true to myself.

Some social media platforms are pretty toxic. I don’t want to be like No Face from Spirited Away and be influenced/changed by the toxic space. I’ve blogged about the topic of toxicity in environment in this post.

Now that I’ve been using social media less, I can put out more blog posts! I can stay on top of my work tasks and do other things like house work LOL. I can spend more time with family and be more present in the moment.

Thoughts: Wotaku ni Koi wa Muzukashii: Youth (Wotakoi OVA)

Wotaku ni Koi wa Muzukashii: Youth is the OVA for Wotaku ni Koi wa Muzukashii. You would have to watch Wotakoi first in order for the OVA to make better sense but it could arguably stand alone on its own.

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Synposis: Hanako Koyanagi tells Narumi and Hirotaka about her high school days and how she met Tarou Kabakura on the volleyball courts.

Thoughts: This was great because Koyanagi and Kabakura don’t get as much screen time in Wotakoi compared to Narumi and Hirotaka. If you enjoyed the Koyanagi x Kabakura pairing or want to learn more about their story, this OVA is for you. It was interesting to see what the characters were like in high school and how they became a couple. Koyanagi looked so adorable with her short hair cut! I think their love story is sweet.

While I’m waiting for Wotakoi season 2 and hoping to see progress in Nao and Kou’s relationship, this OVA was a sweet episode. I recommend this if you liked Wotakoi!