Chase the Light!

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my cardigan is falling off

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5 toppings – pearls, grass jelly, coconut jelly, pudding, red bean

I know I haven’t cosplayed in a while but guess what guys? I feel pretty motivated right now. ūüėČ

  • Casual Luffy from One Piece (again – I posted a photo recently on my Instagram)
  • Rachel Gardner from Angels of Death
  • Light Yagami from Death Note
  • Conan from Detective Conan
  • Hotaru Shidare from¬†Dagashi Kashi
  • Yuki from The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya (library shoot)
  • Misa Amane from Death Note (makeup and shoot in the distant future…)
  • Casual Yuno Gasai from Mirai Nikki
  • Darling from Darling in the Franxx
  • Luka from Just Be Friends
  • Earth-chan

I ordered a few things online so I’m just waiting for them now. In the meantime, I’ll try to find time to cosplay but to be honest I am super busy nowadays… ūüė¶

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A Thing About Twitter

Twitter was my main social media platform, but now I’m stepping away from it. I won’t deactivate my account, but I’m already using it a lot less. Here’s why it no longer interests me. Whenever something does not interest me anymore, I always have my reasons.

1. I am using social media less in general. Currently I don’t feel the need to share my life with others. I still take the same amount of photos as before, but I guess I’m a more private person now. I’ll still post my favourite posts here on my blog and Instagram, of course.

2. Due to reasons related to school and work, I’ve made my account private. I find that it’s less fun being private, and I feel less motivated to tweet. The reason is probably because of the retweeting culture, and others can’t retweet your tweets if you’re a private account.

3. Unpleasant interactions. All I do is tweet randomly about my day, or a random thought I had. I never ask for a dispute over a silly tweet that I could have not tweeted in the first place.

4. Indirect tweeting. I’ve seen a lot of these, but a lot of them are responses to others’ tweets and directing it to the public.

5. People complaining. I am aware that I complain too, but the environment influences the way I tweet. If everyone retweeted more happy and positive thoughts, I would too. You can’t retweet something if you don’t see much of it.

6. Time waster. Now that I don’t go on Twitter as often, I’ve had more time to do other things. Things that are more important than tweeting.

7. People make up news or twist news stories all the time on Twitter. We should always question information before we retweet anything, but a lot of people fail to do this. Twitter is not as bad as Facebook though.

8. Negative news. This is specifically news stories, not others’ personal tweets. I like to be informed about the world’s events, but there are more negative stories than positive ones.

9. When I log into Twitter after a break, I realize I haven’t missed much. Life goes on with or without your online presence.

Twitter used to give me energy because it gave me a place to interact with my online blogger friends. Now I am satisfied with commenting on blog posts. I used to like being updated on what was happening in the community, but now I realize it doesn’t really matter. Of course I am aware of the pros of Twitter, but right now the cons outweigh the pros. It is a toxic space for me and feels draining. Obviously I can’t speak for everyone, but this is my experience with Twitter.

10 Happy Things

I was feeling quite pessimistic and negative, even though I am generally optimistic or neutral. That’s why I decided to blog about ten things that make me happy. Hopefully writing this post will make me feel a bit more appreciative of the little things in life, and it will be something I can read back on in the future.

1. Grass Jelly drink

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My friend gave me a canned grass jelly drink the other day and I loved it. Grass jelly is my favourite bubble tea topping to begin with, but having it as its own drink is cool. It’s a black drink! It’s the perfect amount of sweetness for me (which is not very sweet) and there are small grass jelly chunks. I definitely plan on buying a pack for myself.

2. Boys Love manhua

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LOL LOL. I barely read boys love series now but I follow one shonen ai series, which is Here U Are. It’s by a Chinese author and it’s an ongoing series. Everything is in colour and the art is absolutely amazing. The pacing is slow, which makes the chapters seem short. I’m okay with this though because the relationship shouldn’t be rushed. Every time there is a new update, my day is made.

3. Tales of Vesperia

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This is one of the games I’m currently playing. Most of the JRPGs I’ve played were traditional turn-based so I’m surprised that I’m enjoying the gameplay. ¬†The story, characters and art are all good. I look forward to playing this all the time.

4. Making money

A feeling I hate is spending money without having earned anything. I’m happy that I have a part-time job now so I don’t feel like a lazy butt all the time.

5. Nice people on Twitter

I seriously get so much support on Twitter. Whenever I tweet that I’m in a bad mood, people write words of encouragement. Sometimes people send me private messages. Just the fact that people are trying to cheer me up is the best feeling. Plus, when I’m upset I don’t think rationally but others bring me back to normal. On top of that, I’ve never met these people in real life! It’s refreshing knowing how good the community is. My experience with Twitter has mostly been with anime fans and anime bloggers.

Even my tweets about random thoughts receive a lot of support. I don’t like messaging the same person too many times because I think I will annoy them, so Twitter is the place for me to write down all my thoughts. I don’t like keeping my thoughts bottled up.

6. NARUKO Tea Tree Refreshing Cooling Sunscreen

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This is very specific. I don’t have this product yet, but I am planning on buying it. Not only is it sunscreen, it’s also an anti-acne product. I watched a video of Bii today and he gave his review on this product. All the online reviews I’ve seen are really positive too. I can’t wait to try this out.

7. Hm…

Matcha ice cream

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I can’t wait to eat this again. It’s not very sweet!

8. Latte

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I really like lattes. They look so cute and they also taste good. I would like to go to a cafe by myself or with a friend and order a hot drink. I also love London Fogs.

9. Cosplay

There are a couple of cosplays I’m planning on doing in the near future, as well as future cosplays I would love to do. I want to buy a long pink wig but I’m also saving money at the same time. Ah…

10. Hm

Bed

I’m ready to go to sleep hahaha. Hopefully I’ll have a nice dream.

These ten things are pretty specific to how I’m feeling at this moment. I’m sure most of these will change on any other day. I feel better now!

Changing Style & Musings

I’ve been posting a lot of cosplay pictures but I would also like to post more photos of me being myself.

Looking back at photos from just a few months ago (Sept 2017 – Jan 2018), I feel like I looked so young. I felt young too. I don’t really dress like this anymore. Bye bye, this style. (By the way, this is kind of a response or update to this post. I’m not sure why it’s one of my most popular posts hahaha.)

  • choker &¬†Tokyo Ghoul anime necklace
  • beanie
  • hoodies &¬†layers
  • pigtails &¬†side pony tail
  • not shown: brown combat boots

I don’t know why my clothing style changes every few months. Maybe I get tired of the same style. I like to think that I’m always changing and evolving. c:

Now I like to wear wide black pants with Adidas Superstar sneakers. I don’t have photos yet because I just got into the style, hahaha. Even the jewelry I wear is different too. I don’t take as many outfit photos anymore but maybe there will be an update in the future…


Episodes 9 and 10 of My Hero Academia season 3 were amazing. I’ll watch every episode, but the episodes with villains are the ones I care about the most. If the episode’s focus is solely on the students, it’s not as enjoyable for me.¬†In these recent episodes, I loved it how the professional superheroes came together to fight the villains. It was cool seeing the villains in one place. I am especially interested in the relationship between Tomura, my favourite character, and his master.

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Listening to: BiSH РPAiNT it BLACK

Why I Like Anime So Much

I had doubts over writing this post, but all the support I received on Twitter made me complete it in the end.

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Screen shots from yesterday

In elementary school, I had zero interest in gossiping about other female classmates or gushing about boys. I hated Western pop music and reality TV shows. Most of all, I made zero effort to change myself or pretend to be like them. I do think that my indifferent facial expressions hindered me from making friends. No surprise, but I didn’t have many friends. I didn’t think I was better than other people because I didn’t like myself that much either. I felt that I didn’t belong, like an alien that belonged to another planet.

I went home after school right away by myself. During the summer breaks, I stayed at home by myself during the day because my parents were working. I watched anime all-day when I was home alone and did my homework when my parents were home. I had a lot of free time, so I achieved A’s in everything except gym.¬†Anime was a way for me to pass the time and it distracted me so I didn’t have to think about real life.¬†I read a lot of manga too.

I learned about the world, places, people, and relationships through anime. My life was uninteresting and uneventful so I relied on anime to be my guide. At the same time, I was able to differentiate between anime and reality. All too well. I felt indifferent towards reality. Anime worlds weren’t that great either because of all the challenges the characters had to face. Still, the impossible happened in anime. A notebook that could kill people? Anime was so interesting!

This is my favourite song, and it represents how I felt when I was younger. Strangely, the song calms me and I don’t feel sadness over loneliness anymore. I’ve learned to embrace it.

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My current life is so different from my lonely childhood. When I was young I didn’t have a blog, no outlet to express my thoughts and feelings. I just had anime. It was like a friend. I still watch anime because it passes the time. With countless titles to watch and shows coming out every season, it’s endless fun. It’s still interesting.

Now that I am more involved with activities in my life, I can spend my time blogging about anime, cosplaying as anime characters, drawing anime fan art, attending conventions and more. Being active with anime has made me part of this online community of anime bloggers. You are all so nice to me. Thank you for that. When I was young, anime was the friend that killed boredom. Now, anime has provided me with fun activities and many friendships. 

As a kid, real life didn’t make me feel a lot of emotions. I was neutral most of the time. Anime made me cry countless times, and One Piece was able to make me laugh many times. Watching anime made me feel human.¬†

Thoughts and food.

I’m starting to read Julius Caesar by William Shakespeare and the famous line, “Et tu, Brute?” has me shaken.

The theme of betrayal happens all the time in literature and in anime too. Take the song Vogel im Käfig from Attack on Titan, for example. When I listen to the song, I feel anger, betrayal, sadness, disbelief and acceptance. The song plays during my favourite scene in the anime, the betrayal.

Quotes pop up on the loading screen of a game I’m playing. This quote in particular was very interesting. It was cool seeing a quote from a novel I own.

‚ÄúIf you want to keep a secret, you must also hide it from yourself.‚ÄĚ – George Orwell, 1984

 

Don’t worry, my life is mundane. Every time I write about a serious topic like this, there are always a couple of people who ask me if I’m okay, or if there’s anything wrong. I do appreciate the concern, but you have to understand that I think a lot. I’m not blindly consuming content and not thinking about it afterwards! No, I think about the things I read and watch.

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dragon fruit and soy milk

P.S. I’m learning how to skateboard. Balancing is not an issue but I need to practice turning.