Obsession

I recently had a conversation about obsessions, and how I would even like to have an obsession. Hear me out.

I think life is more fun and enjoyable when you are obsessed with something. I find that you are most creative because you are driven by your sheer determination. You are passionate about something! (Or someone.) I was obsessed with The Phantom of the Opera when I was in high school. I didn’t like Christine, so I read every single Erik x Meg fanfic that existed. I even wrote my own fanfiction, which I never published. That was the only period of my life where I wrote fanfiction.

I have been trying to get into fanfiction writing for a while now lately, but I lack motivation. I don’t have something I’m obsessed with. (Is obsession the right word?)

I recently came across a Tweet that said that the fastest way to improve your art is by being obsessed with something, and I wholeheartedly agree with that. I haven’t drawn in a couple of years, and that’s something I used to do. Cosplay is another hobby that I haven’t done in a long time.

I used to be really into celebrities, but I’m too jaded for that now. I’ve been disappointed by too many scandals to count! 😂

Anyway, I think I just need some motivation. Writing this post is a step, so at least there’s that.

Going Back to My Roots

Not going to lie, I’ve wondered why I blog and do my other hobbies. I could just enjoy content without creating my own.

What value do I add to this world? I’m contributing to something, right..?

Do people like me? My content?

Does my content suck? LOL

These are the thoughts I’ve had. I can’t help it; I’ve been negative my entire life.

I got a letter from my penpal and a portion of the letter stuck out to me. The gist of it was: pushing people towards things they would have otherwise overlooked, and that people have watched shows because of me. This is true. I’ve had many people tell me that they’ve watched shows because of my reviews. Examples: Bii Your Light + Appreciation Shout-Outs & Yesterday wo Utatte Episode 1 Impressions. There are many more instances…

Isn’t this a huge reason why I blog in the first place? To share the things I love so that more people can learn about them. In my Why I Like Anime So Much post, I shared that growing up, my classmates and I enjoyed different shows. I was alone in the sense that nobody knew what I was talking about.

Things are different now. Possibly the biggest reason why I blog is because of the blogging community and my blogger friends. Friends that, may not necessarily watch the stuff I like but are willing to read about my interests and be nonjudgmental.

Re-examining my motivations for blogging and other interests made me realize that blogging is a meaningful hobby for me. 🙂

Character Spotlight: Tamaki Amajiki (My Hero Academia)

Tamaki Amajiki is an important character in My Hero Academia Season 4. His hero name is Suneater and his quirk is Manifest, which lets him manifest characteristics of the foods he eats (for example, he can grow octopus tentacles if he eats takoyaki). He is a student at U.A. and is one of The Big 3.

Tamaki is a pessimist. He has low confidence because of his perfectionist nature. When he is unable to achieve perfection, his self-esteem plummets. He undermines his own talents and feels nervous and anxious often. He was shy as a child but experienced a lot character development. He’s still negative but is a very precious character.

I wanted to do a Character Spotlight post on him because I think that he is the most realistic character in the anime. In My Hero Academia, a lot of the other students have this unrealistic optimism. Where they get that optimism, I have no idea. Maybe it’s because I am a pessimist myself, so I do not understand. In the anime, the characters train to become heroes and put themselves in life-threatening situations. It’s admirable as heck but it’s terrifying. Being a person is terrifying.

My Hero Academia Season 4 episode 8 focused on Tamaki and told us his backstory. Some of you guys might not like backstory episodes, but I thought that it was an awesome episode. Seeing how Tamaki was when he was younger and then seeing him fight against three villains at once (and succeeding, on top of that) was inspiring to watch. Life is hard, but anime can help motivate you to give things another try. XD

Blogging is Fun

These past days I’ve been motivated to wake up earlier and make my own food!

I had an avocado, a golden kiwi, a blueberry waffle with maple syrup, and a cup of sweetened soy milk for breakfast.

Cucumber water is my new favourite drink.