So my 23rd birthday just passed and now I’m writing this at 1 AM. It was a good birthday.
I think I’ve grown a lot in these past few years. I’m pretty chill now… A lot of things don’t bother me anymore.
Or maybe I’ve just become desensitized to everything. Hahaha.
Seriously though, I can’t remember the last time I felt petty in a while. If I have a problem with someone, I feel comfortable confronting them about the issue now, while keeping the conversation respectful.
I’ve started doing things less for other peoples’ approval. I would say that I’ve become a more authentic person. Authenticity is one of my values and those who respect me and like me for who I am are people I cherish.
Basically, I feel more mature. (maybe because I am actually an adult…)
Mint in my water, grown from a friend’s backyard
I used to care so much about the littlest things, to the point where I was not happy. Every day had to be worthwhile; otherwise, it was a waste. I think differently now. Giving it your best at school, work, volunteer, and social relationships is good already. Even if volunteer and work was just like any other day, the fact that it went smoothly should be enough. I used to be upset if I wasted my free time being lazy around the house. Now I enjoy having a peaceful and relaxing day at home. It’s fun to spend the day alone, reading romance manga and laying in my bed. There is no longer a desire to see my friends everyday, because I know that they are still there for me. I’m really happy with myself. Commitments outside of home are already time-consuming and they require a lot of energy, so time at home is really the best. In the end, everything is worth it and nothing is wasted.